Fall in love with a smile

Since when do not know, my mouth obsessed with a smile, I'm sad or happy at any time, for only a smile, more often, I smile, just because I do not know what is sad or happy. - Inscription
not sad, smile, do not be sad, smile ... ... I have always said to myself, even hypocritical, but also smile.
I am accustomed to working very hard to smile to show itself in front of everyone and let them know I'm happy, so they no longer worried by the kind of looked at me, let them know I am no longer a need to protect children.
Sometimes in the deep of the night
will receive her mother's phone, I stood in the empty corridor and talk to her, the night wind in the cool earth kept wandering inside my clothes . Every time my mother told me to wear more clothes, cold weather, but also remember to eat, not to have a meal without meal, so that the stomach is not good, not picky eaters to eat more vegetables, free to go home, and then is a long silence, I knew she was hesitating whether to ask something, I know she knows her daughter is not happy, bustling cities in a loss to see the close and far away from everything, I know she saw all obscure words flashes in her eyes ... ... and as a mother, she was powerless.
I gently smiled and said, Mom, I will be very happy, really.

I've been laughing, laughed, laughed so much, many think that since then I have almost never cry.

lack of sleep, or do not know how, I feel the air around them began to shake slightly, I think they are in a boat, surrounded by waves, wind and rain, and the time of the flood.
and small T
Internet chat, she told me that she is now a teacher, there is a four-year-old female teacher, and they have a child who's stubborn, she said that people generally is smooth, with little harm, say Life begins at forty, but she is simply head full of fantasies, she said, but from a certain perspective, she may be lucky. Then I simply smile here.

night to receive her message:
not happy, I will be very sad, now you're gone, I see you are not happy, but I was very sad.

suddenly I remembered the time was wearing a blue school uniform small T, stand in the sun shining through the side of the blackboard, smile at me have been a smile ... ...
Someone once said to me, if you are not happy, you have been filled with happy, filled with filled with, you will be really happy.
sunny days, I always feel the aching knees, standing on the balcony of sunlight, I am naturally right hand stand in front of the eye, the sky was divided in two and a half fingers, half of yellow, half blue. I think that half of the bright stubborn, half sad.
time the sun fell on me, I always heard behind me a happy song vague. The room stood
I saw a vast expanse of clouds float over the small E there. All still speechless.

a lot of time has passed, I was so lonely with no one else to ... ...